[AtsuMina] Intertwined Star

“Huee….hueee…” there was a girl who cried not long from my house. I stopped right behind her  and I squatted next to her.

“Hi, cutie. What’s wrong?” I asked as my hand stroked her long hair. She turned to look at me then her right hand pointed to a high tree not long from we stood. There was a red balloon stuck on top of it. Looked like this girl cried over her balloon.

“I will try to take it for you.” I said as I smile.

“Neechan, can you do it? That is quite high for you to climb.” In sob, that girl was asking.

I couldn’t help but smile back to her, I poked her soft cheek and she blushed.

“Please close your eyes.”

She tilted her head as she showed a confusion.

“Close your eyes and do not peek before I ask you to open them.” The girl finally nodded and immediately closed her small brownie eyes.

Just for some seconds, I asked her to open her eyes.

“Open them..” as the girl opened both of her eyes, she could see what on my hand was. Her balloon. She looked so happy then took it from my hand.

“That was fast!! How could you do that?!” asked the girl in curious.

“Haha…. It is a secret.” I put my point finger on my lip and winked at her. The girl kept laughing and didn’t bother to ask again since she has got what she wanted. She waved at me as she continued walking and playing with her balloon. I couldn’t help but smile to myself.

I didn’t stand there for long as my feet came to drag me to school. Usually, I prefer to walk to take bus since my school wasn’t that far, but today err yesterday also, I started to take bus. I did that only to meet her.

I got into the bus and it was still filled by few people. My eyes looked for her, but weird it was the first time she had not come, yet. Maybe she was sick? I started to think negatively as I couldn’t find her. She must be alright, that was what I tell myself.

“CHOTTO!!!” a voice came from outside as the bus started to leave. I looked out from the window and a smile formed on my face. That was her voice. The bus had stopped and she got in to the bus. In the bus, she tried to catch from some air as I could see her body was sweating. Then she rose up her head and our eyes met. DEG! I went panic because it was the first time our eyes met!

“Hi, Maeda-san…” she greeted me and I froze. Why I felt so happy when she greeted me today?

“H….Hi….” I stuttered.

“Eh? What happened? You sounded so nervous?”

“Eh? No…” I looked away, try to hide my pinky face. She walked closer to me and I couldn’t control my heart beat. She passed me and sat on the nearer seat. I didn’t know how to act and I just end up standing there. Ugh, I want to sit!

“Don’t you want to sit? Here…” she asked me to sit next to her. I looked at her and she just smiled to me. I followed what she asked me to, well I wanted to sit next to her though so it was not a big problem to me, but why my heart won’t stop beating? Arghh

Finally we arrived at school and I ended up walking together with her. It was the first time! First time!!!! We walked to the classroom and the class would start for another couple of minutes.

“Hoi, Atsuko…” I turned around as I saw she called me. She called me by my first name!! “…can I just call you like that?”

I bit my lip and tried to control my heart beat, I nodded at the same time. “Cool! So please call me by my first name as well.” She smiled.

“Al…alright. Mi…Minami..”

“That’s better.” She smiled, and I went blush.

“Ano….” She looked at me sharply and walked closer. BADDUMP, BADDUMP. I felt my heart beat so fast. “….I saw it.” She said.

I tilted my head, didn’t understand what she meant. She smiled once again and repeated what she said to me.

“This morning I saw it. You and balloon.”

Now I am dead. She saw everything! What I am gonna do now?!

“That was amazing! How could you do that? I mean, you move something eventhough you didn’t touch them! That was great!” she explained.

Looked like I couldn’t hide it anymore. She found it herself. Now I must be worried whether she would tell other people about it. I felt a bit afraid since this power was kinda weird and might be someone would take some advantages from me. First of all, I should find a way how to prevent Minami to tell people about it.

“Don’t worry, Atsuko. I won’t tell to other. It is our secret!” she winked. Should I thank god or herself. I felt relieved a bit, but still I shouldn’t keep my guard down.

~Break Time~

“Wanna have lunch together?”

“Sure.” Quick replied by me. Of course I would say yes since this was my first time having lunch together with her!

Minami led me to roof top and as usual I got my bento with me and she just brought a simple sandwich inside her lunch box.

“Are you always eating that?” I asked.

“Hum..” she nodded as she ate a piece from its bread.

“You should have to eat some healthy foods.” I advised. She came and took a look to my bento.

“Like that?” she pointed at my lunch. “No! I mean, those are a lot of my dislike foods! Vegetables! Arrgghhh!!!” I saw her sandwich and there were no any vegetables detected. I chuckled.

“I like eating vegetables, of course my favorite is tomato.” I said as I showed her a quiet big shaped of tomato from my bento and she went like, ‘Geezzz’

“You like it that much? That is tasteless.”

“No….It’s good. You’ve got to try it.”

Surprisingly she quickly ate the tomato I showed her before. She coughed after giving some bites but she didn’t throw it out.

“Mou~ Taste so bad~” she commented.

“You ate my tomato~ moreover that is the bigger one and I actually saved it for later…”

“EH? Gomen Atsuko! Gomen!”

“Haha no worries…”

“I think should try to eat some more.” She said.

“You want some? Come here, I will feed you~”

“Okaaay~” she came closer and our arms touched each other. My heart when thump thump crazily as my face turned red. I took one of beans and gave it to her. Minami ate everything I gave her, though she said she dislike vegetables therefore she could eat it all. She kept staying closer and waiting for me to give her another vegetable, it was totally weird as she kept coming closer. Once she glanced at me with serious look, and I avoided her eyes and took some vegetables, suddenly Minami pressed her soft lips on mine. I was quiet shocked with her sudden action but can’t resist as I wanted to kiss her as well. She put her right hand behind my head and kept pulling me and looking for another deep kiss. My heart went crazier as she licked my lip up. There was the time when I came to reply her kiss and we both kissed in passion.

After what happened between us, our bond kept increasing. We went to have lunch together, went home together, whatever we did always together. Somehow I felt so happy.

“Atsuko, about your power…” she started speaking. “…how could you get that kind of power?”

“I am not sure.” I played with her hair as she slept on my lap. “…when I was kid, I used to play around lake near my house. Suddenly a light appeared on the sky and it went toward me so fast. After that I woke up and I was in my room, my parents were there. I found my power when I tried to reach my shoes on the locker.”

“Hah? Why did you put your shoes on the place which was out of your reach?”

“It was not me. I was used to get bullied you know. They put it there so that I couldn’t take it.”

“What? If I have become your friend at that time, I would definitely protect you and teach them some lessons.”

I just smiled. “Can you see future?” she asked.

“I guess not. I only can move thing.”

“Oh I see…” there was a pause between us. “Atsuko….come here…” she put her left hand behind my head and pulled it closer. Then our lips press each other for many times.

She asked me to come to her house today.

“Ojama shimasu~” I got inside and put my shoes off. She held my hand, we passed her living room as I saw there was a piano. Wow Minami played piano. That was awesome. Now we were in her room.

“This is my room!” she smiled to me. I walked to the nearest table as I saw her photo with someone. I grabbed it and looked at the guy who stood next to her.

“That is my big bro. We don’t live together, but he lives nearby. Sometime he comes here and gives me some money and foods.”

“Oh I see… ah btw you play piano? I saw one in your living room.”

“It’s my bro. I don’t play piano. It’s a bit hard.”

“How romantic your brother is.”

“Eee? What?” she showed her smirk and then pushed me to the bed. She came closer and pinned both of my hands, she was at top. “You like my brother huh Atsuko?” she smirked.

“Hee….Why did you ask? Jealous?” I chuckled.

“Jealous? Me? Nah~”

“Ow really? Don’t you think I will fall for your brother later maybe?”

“I don’t think so…”

“How could you be so sure about it? We can’t guess human’s feeling.” I started teasing her.

“Of course I am sure coz…You will always love me, right?”

“Hm…. I can’t guarantee…”

“What did you say?” she tickled me and I burst out some laughs.

“Minami! Stop! Stop!!”

“I wont~” then she kept tickling me.

“Alright! Alright! Haha….”

“The answer?”

“I always love you~ Happy now?” I felt Minami’s hands stopped moving. Her hand moved to my chin and rose my face up to look at her. She showed her smirk again and she kissed me gently. She pinned both of my hands with one of her hands. As still kissing, she unbuttoned my uniform and her hand travelled around inside.

“Mou~ let my hands off ~”

“Yada…” she said as she sealed my lip off with her soft one. It is right on my chest and at the same time my heart was pounding. It must be so embarrassing when she found out about it. She started squeezing my breast smoothly as I let out a small moan inside her mouth as we were still kissing.

“Mi…Minami~ Don’t…”

“I want to know how my girlfriend sounds like…” she smirked.


As I said that, she immediately licked my chin and again she squeezed my breast for the second time. I tried so hard to not let any single sound out from my mouth by biting my lip as I thought that was so embarrassing. But Minami thought the other way as if she wanted to hear the sound of satisfaction of mine as she started rubbing my thigh up and down, then moved her hand to my stomach and licked up my collarbone.

“Don’t ever try to hold it. I want to hear you~ Just say it out, Atsuko, so that I know whether my touching can satisfy you or not.”

“What are you saying, baka!!!”

“You heard it clearly babe. Nee, let me hear you…” she licked my lower lip as her hand was touching my breast. Alright, I still can hold myself. I smelled something as she smirked and continued kissing my collarbone. Now both of her hands were on my breast and she started squeezing it slowly as she sucked my neck. I really hated it when I enjoyed her touch, couldn’t hold it anymore and I ended up moaning in joy. She kept groping it and licking it up as she wanted to hear me so bad.


“No…not yet.” She kept doing the same even harder followed by my unstoppable moan.

“Atsuko…..Your voice is seducing me~ I want to taste you more.” She put my uniform off as she finished unbuttoning it all and threw it away. “Let’s make memorable night.”

Even in a very embarrassing situation like this, I smiled at her. I pulled her down and we shared for another kiss.


Here is for you, Atsuko

Ah! What is it?

It is intertwined star. Nobody can separate them unless the owner got separated from his/her lover

Eh? Really? Where did you get it?

Stranger on the street.

I felt my head a bit hurt. What was that I just saw? Was it a dream? Itai~

“Oh, you’re awake. Did I wake you up?” I looked at the person next to me. She smiled at me and gave me a morning kiss on forehead.

“I think I just had a dream and my head hurt.”

“Oh really? What dream?”

“I am not sure. I can’t recall it.”

“You look like sleeping beauty Atsuko. I kept looking at you during your sleep.” She smiled.

“Did you do something to me while sleeping?”

“I really wanted to but you sleep in sound, I am afraid I would wake you up.” She chuckled.

Then she moved closer to me. She moved her body slowly under the bed cover which covered both of our naked bodies. She stopped when our body was touching each other. She rested her head on my shoulder, and we got our hands intertwined each other.

“You’re going home soon?”

“Ehm, yeah. My mother must be worried although I informed her yesterday I stayed at your house.”

“Okay. I understand. Will you come again?”

“Of course I will.” I smiled. She extended her hand and placed it on my chin. She made me to turn to look at her.

“I love you, Atsuko..”

“I do too…”

We then shared passion kiss in the morning, covered by bed cover and naked. It looked like recalling what we did last night.

“Let me accompany you until station.” She said. As I finish putting my uniform on, I walked to living room followed by her.

“Don’t worry, Minami. I will be fine.”

“Ah wait!” Minami ran to her room and back with something on her hand.

“Here is for you, Atsuko”

“Ah! What is it?”

“It is intertwined star. Nobody can separate them unless the owner got separated from his/her lover”

“Eh? Really? Where did you get it?” I asked as I took it from her.

“I met stranger on the street and he gave me this.”

DEG. Why did I think I have experienced this conversation before?

“Tadaima..” I looked at the door and I saw a figure, a tall man with formal suit and looked….a bit exhausted and pale.

“Okaeri, oniisan.” Greeted Minami.

“Ah, I am home, Minami-chan. Aaree?” he then looked at me.

“H-hi, I am Maeda Atsuko. Nice to meet you.”

“She is my friend. Yesterday we had task from teacher so that she slept over.”

“Oh I see. Hi, I am Takahashi Yamato. Minami’s brother. Nice to meet you too, Atsuko-chan.” He smiled. I didn’t understand but got blushed. Minami’s brother was really an ikemen.

“Alright….alright….stop right there.” Minami clapped her hands. “… Atsuko let me accompany you until front gate.” I nodded.

“Don’t fall for my brother.” She pouted.

“Eh? No of course.” I chuckled. “But you’re bro is quite handsome.”


“Haha….He is handsome, but that is not the reason I might fall for him though. Only you I love, Minami.” I smiled.

“Hai, go home go home. You make me wanna kiss you right now. Its dangerous if someone spot us.” She pushed me off.

“Okay. Bye~”

On the way to the bus station, I grabbed my bag and looked for my phone. I wanted to call my mother to help her buy something at market since I would pass it on the way home, but I couldn’t find it.

“It must be at Minami’s house.” I decided to go back and headed to Minami’s house. In front of her house, I tried to ring the door bell but nobody came out. The gate wasn’t locked though. She was out to combini I think so that she didn’t lock it. I stuck in the main door as it was locked.

“I think it’s okay I use it here.” I just needed to stare at the door and, ‘KLIK’ it was unlocked. I opened the door and headed to Minami’s house.

“Hm?” I stopped as I saw the door was almost close. I heard a voice coming from there and my heart raced. I stepped slowly and took a peek from where I stood. I was surprised as what I saw. Minami….there….with her brother. Naked. Hugging each other, kissing each other.

What the fuck?! What was she doing there? With….her brother?! I needed to go but my feet didn’t move. They were stuck. Damn it. When I stepped backward, my bag fall and it made a sound. The edge of Minami’s eyes were looking at me and she looked shocked seeing me standing there.

“Atsuko?” she said as I looked away and ran. “Atsuko!! Wait!!” I could hear she called my name but I didn’t bother to stop and I just kept running. I ran and ran, I didn’t care other saw me strangely since I was running while crying a lot.

“Minami….how could you do that to me? How could you…” I kept saying that while running. “Hidoi yo…” I kept running and running until I couldn’t continue and stopped at somewhere. I caught some breathes and looked up to the sky. My tears kept rolling down and it won’t stop. “Hik…Minami, you’re so cruel…hik…” I said in sob. I noticed that something fell from my pocket and I took a look at it. That was the intertwined start she gave me before. I took it and examined it. Something different. Yeah, it was separated. I bit my lower lip so that my tears will stop rolling down.

It is intertwined star. Nobody can separate them unless the owner got separated from his/her lover

“Minami…..” Couldn’t help but cry as I held that star tighter.

I skipped school, my phone was at Minami’s house so of course she couldn’t reach me. I felt relieved since she couldn’t look for me as she didn’t know where my house was. I told my mother to not tell anybody about me. I knew she was worried but I couldn’t tell her what’s wrong.  Glad that she understood.

Some days passed and I decided to go to school. Well, I left my bag at Minami’s house so I came to school without bringing anything. Who cares? I just only needed to sit in the class, listen to teacher, I could borrow some pens and papers to my classmates though.

I found out a piece of paper on my table and it said, “Meet me at laboratory.” I took it from my table and threw it to the bin. I knew that must be Minami. I looked around class but no signal of her. I bet she skipped class today.

Already 4 pm and I didn’t bother to meet her at lab as I kept going to the shoes locker. There, I saw my bag in front of my locker. I took it and looked inside, my phone was there, it was complete nothing lost. My heart was racing as I could feel her presence there. I immediately changed my shoes and headed back to avoid Minami once she showed up. I was late. She was there, blocking my way.

“I need to explain.”

“What can you explain?” I was pretty shocked I sounded so cold. “Nothing you can explain. Get off my way.”

“Atsuko please listen to me.” She held my hand so tight and I quickly swept it away. “Atsuko….I beg you.”

“Wrong. It is all wrong. I am such a fool. It is all wrong!! Get off!!” I tried to get away from her, but she stood there and blocked my way. After that she grabbed both of my hands and forcibly kissed me. I tried to fight her, to push her back but I failed. Minami was too strong. She pinned both of my hands and attached our body to the locker. She kept kissing me, pushing me so hard. I couldn’t move anymore since behind me was locker. I let out some tears and it made her to stop her kiss.

“I am sorry.” She said as looking down.

“What did you do with your brother last time? Why did you do that to me, Minami?” I said as I cried. She wiped my tears so gently but her mouth was locked, she couldn’t give any answer.

“I don’t know if I can explain it well to you, but something you need to know….I love you.”

“Don’t say a word ‘love’ that easy!” I shouted at her. “A person like you, don’t even know what love is! You are playing with it instead! You’re making joke of my feeling!”

“No. I am serious, I love you. Nobody else, but you. Trust me…”

“How could I trust you after what you have done to me? Let me go, please…” I begged her to let my hands free. She looked so sad though. Why she was the one who felt sad? It should be me, not her. She moved closer again and kissed me softly, no force, no rough, it was so smooth and so gentle. The kiss that I liked from her. The kiss that I really missed. I didn’t even have power to resist, to push her back, all I could do just to feel her kiss. I kissed her back after that and she tilted her head a bit and tried to have good spot to kiss me. I felt her hands on mine had loosen a bit, then slowly they moved around my waist and got wrapped around it. I also extended my arms and wrapped it around her neck. We continued kissing each other in passion, with love, and my heart couldn’t stop beating. Our kiss turned into deep one as she slip her tongue in and started a battle inside.

Some scenes passed in my mind, where Minami kissed her brother in passion. I realized it then I quickly pushed her.

“It couldn’t be happening.” I said.

“We love each other.” She added.

“You betrayed me. I couldn’t forgive you.”

She sighed, “Okay…” she pulled my hand and force me to follow her.

“What are you doing?! Let me off!”

“I won’t. This is for the last time.”

She dragged me to her house. She locked the door and she pushed me to the couch. I fell on it as she climbed on me.

“Please Atsuko. Love me for the last time.” She said as she kissed my hand.

“Last time?”

“I will move and transfer to new school. Away from you.” She added as she unbuttoned my uniform.

How could you do that? After hurting me, you go away? Leaving me with this feeling I had for you? How cruel you are! I can’t say those to her right away, why should I? I can’t clearly see that she loves me or not. She said she did, but what did she do with her brother then? That was unacceptable and unforgivable.

Now what am I doing here? For the last time? Is that okay for me? Is that really okay to let her go and leaving everything like this? Should I?

I felt something wet touched my chest. I looked up as I saw her crying. That was Minami’s tears. It was my first time seeing her crying like this, in this situation. Why did you cry? You shouldn’t be the one who felt sad, you seem not that have much burden on you, but why you cried? It was confusing.

She came closer to my ears and whispered something, “Atsuko…I love you so much.” Then she sucked my ear lobe her hand caressed my cheek. She planted some kisses on my cheek, chin, and my nose. Then it came to my lips and she sucked it.

That night we had spent before was like recalling again. I enjoyed every part of my body which was touched by her, we both enjoyed it. Moaning in pain, in joy, it just sounded so sweet, coz it loved that we made. At least this was for last time. I hoped I could manage to forget her later.

Brother, are you kidding?

No I am not. My life would end in some months. Doctors told me to stay at hospital for whole times after this.


Minami-chan…. (he hugs Minami) Can I hug you tonight?

What? Brother what are you saying? (Pushing her brother)

Ah… I am sorry Minami-chan. Please just forget about it. I should know it, you’re the only sister of mine. I shouldn’t do that…

(Minami keeps staring at her brother)

Okay. Let’s do it.


(Minami comes closer) You are brother whom I proud of. I admire you… (Minami smiles)

Minami-chan… (Her brother is crying as he hugs Minami)

I opened my eyes and woke up quickly. I felt my head hurt and I looked around. I was at Minami’s house. Seem like nobody was here. I think Minami has gone. Again, what image I got? Minami and her brother? Her brother was dying right now? What was that actually? Was that a dream? I held my head since it really hurt.

Your life wouldn’t stand long. Sorry we can’t help much (A doctor talks to Minami’s brother)

Thanks Doc for everything you did to me so that I could survive for some more times.

“Itai!” I shouted as the image disappeared. After blinking for some times, I realized that I could see past. That might be the time when her brother spoke to doctor. And the day I saw Minami and her brother. OMG, I am so stupid. Minami wasn’t wrong. She did that because he was her brother, Minami just only wanted to make her brother happy until the rest of his time. No love involved, only affection relationship between brother and sister.

I saw something on the table and I took it. It was the start which separated from mine. Minami kept it. I couldn’t help but cry whole time. Minami has gone, I didn’t even know anything where she might go. I still can’t control my power, I still don’t know how to see future and past. She also left her phone on the table. My feeling was complicated. I hated her because she didn’t tell me about it. I cried a lot to express my complicated feeling, I was angry, I was upset, I was sad, I was a fool, and I wanted to meet Minami so bad. I held the star so tight and I felt my body trembling. PATTS!

“Whoa!!” I fell on top of someone as I felt my back was in pain.

“Something wrong miss?” a driver asked from front as he couldn’t turn away coz he needed to concentrate.

“No-nothing sir. I am fine.” That figure said. “Atsuko, what are you doing here?!” she asked almost in shock, well fully shocked. Who wouldn’t be when someone suddenly fell from top? Thanks it was at night so nobody in bus except us at back.

“Minami, why you didn’t tell me earlier about your brother?”


“Your brother is dying right? Why you didn’t tell me?!”

“You know? How could you know?”

“I could see past.”

“You just did teleportation, didn’t you?”

“Maybe I did, I didn’t know. I held this…” I showed her the star.

“Ah, I brought yours…” Minami showed my star that she brought. “Btw, where is your skirt?!” she asked in shocked.

“Did you forget you put it off?”

“At least, you should put it on before doing teleportation!”

“It was all sudden. I didn’t have time for that.” She chuckled. “I can’t forgive you, Minami…”

“Well…” she looked down, “It’s okay if you can’t forgive me.”

“I can’t forgive you if you still want to go.” We were both in silent. “….take my hand, and lets go home. Together.” I smiled. She shed tears as she nodded and reached my hand. PATTS we travelled again.

We fell on top of Minami’s bed. She became my pillow this time.

“Gomen, Minami…” I wanted to wake up, but stopped by her.

“It’s okay. I give you chance to be on top…” she smirked.

“Ouh…I hope you won’t regret it, Minami.”

“Of course not. It must be fun. Shall we start?”

“As you wish…” I pressed my lip against hers and messed her hair up. “I love you, Minami…”

“I love you too, Atsuko…”

And at that night, we made another memorable and unforgettable night together.


[AtsuMina] After That Day

After Atsuko announced her graduation at the concert, I couldn’t sleep well. Everytime I thought about her. I really didn’t want her to leave, no… I mean, I really wanted her to stay and be beside me always, and reach our dreams together, but I know I couldn’t do that to her. I couldn’t ask her to stay though she had her own dreams to be achieved. Now Atsuko was surely understand what she really wanted to do.
When Atsuko talked about this to me last year, I was little bit surprised. Not a little, okay.. I was surprised. I couldn’t believe she would leave me where I really really wanted to step forward with AKB48 at this time. I thought we could do that together, together we brought AKB48 to the spectacular stage, stood on the stage together and felt the awesomeness of fans chant. I guessed we couldn’t do that anymore after Tokyo Dome Concert this year.
After concert, many members were hugging her and sobbing on her shoulder. Atsuko kept hugging the members, half laughing and half crying. Once she tried to wipe her tears away and wished it wouldn’t fall anymore, but it became much since Team A surrounded her and cried in front of her. Shiichan hugged her so tight and Aamin did too. I just kept looking at her from a far, felt the much paint myself and kept my eager to hug her away. I really wanted to hug that person right now. SKE48 and NMB48’s members one by one also surrounded her. One of NMB’s members, Jo Eriko cried so much. I didn’t know that she is Atsuko’s fans. I thought that she really looked up at Atsuko at these times and tried to be like her. Now the only one person she admired was going to graduate soon, and that must be the hardest time for Jo.
It’s time for me to give some words to all members as usual. Akip was also there and giving plenty words about concert and Atsuko’s graduation. After dismissing, I walked to Atsuko and she was with Yuko.
“I can’t believe you leave AKB before me.” Yuko laughed.
“I am sorry, Yuko. Hard for me to leave also…”Atsuko said. Her eyes were swollen.
“Even Mariko is still here… Hehe…. Ah…” then Yuko saw me behind Atsuko. Looked like she understood, she left us alone. I tried to smile in front of Atsuko and so did her. I couldn’t help and hugged her tight. I must not cry, that was what I told myself but I failed. I cried on her shoulder. I felt Atsuko’s body trembled. After some mins, I ended our hug and patted on her head.
“Are you alright?” I asked her. She shook her head and bit her lips in cute way.
“You will be alright Atsuko.” I smiled to her. “When you are still here, let’s do our best together. I know its hard for you to leave AKB, we were together since beginning and I know it must be so hard.” I held her hand, I wanted her to feel a bit relax.
“Minami…Thank you for always supporting me. I don’t know what happened if you’re not around.”
It didn’t even a matter at all Atsuko. Wherever you go, I will be there even later you are not in AKB48 anymore, I won’t let you go. “Ma…ma… Don’t need to say thanks.” I smiled.
“We….still can meet, right?” Atsuko asked.
“Yes of course we can. We can mail each other and promise to meet somewhere.”
Atsuko couldn’t hold her tears anymore and started to hug me. I hugged her back so tight. This person is really important.
Since that day, I felt Atsuko changed a bit. She called me, mailed me even often. She didn’t do it before, she did but not too often. Day by day I spent with Atsuko, and it made me hard to let her go. Slowly my feeling toward her grew even stronger, I wanted to be with her forever.
Today Team A did rehearsal for national tour in Fukuoka and everybody came on time. We did collaboration with AKB48 sister group in Fukuoka, HKT48. Our setlist would also be shuffled and I had duet with Atsuko to sing Temo Demo no Namida. This was the first time we had our time just the two of us on the stage. Somehow I felt so excited.
We sat in the corner and watched the Temo Demo video which I brought along. Atsuko sat beside me and looked so serious watched the video. She had not ever performed this song me either.
“Yosh, we can do this Minami…” Atsuko sounded so excited. I smiled whenever I saw her like that. As long as Atsuko was still in AKB48, I must not look so bad in front of her.
We danced together, once failed because we didn’t make the timing, but we didn’t give up. Atsuko didn’t even take any rest until she got the right dance. I couldn’t help but followed her. That was only I could do for her.
Some minutes had passed and Atsuko had already got the right dance. We took rests and sat next to each other.
“I must present my best performance to fans. I don’t want to disappoint them. I must work hard. Ne, Minami?”
“Un…” I nodded.
Atsuko’s eyes looked so serious. Before leaving AKB48, she must be doing her best and I understood. I wanted to help her as much as I could. Helping her to seize her dreams, support her and always to be by her side. Although until that day came when we got separated by place and time, I still wanted to be by her side no matter what. Maybe I couldn’t get her affection, I didn’t care. As long as I saw her smile, it was enough.
I held her hand and looked at her eyes, “I promise, this concert will be more than a success. Let’s make memorable concert…”
Atsuko showed her cute smile and slowly lied her head on my shoulder.
“Whenever I am with you, I feel everything would be okay. It feels so comfortable…” Atsuko slowly closed her eyes and she held my hand back.
We have already finished for today and some of us were going to have something to eat. I needed to go to restroom and then back to the practice room and saw Atsuko slept on the floor with her bag as the pillow. I walked slowly to her so that he wouldn’t wake up. I knelt down right beside her and looked closely to her face. It looked so exhausted and it showed how hard she practiced for this national tour’s sake. I pulled myself closer, I didn’t know what I did but I hoped she wouldn’t wake up until I could reach that small lip of hers. I know I was such a coward attacking her in the middle of sleeping but if I did it when she stayed up, she probably would hate me so much. Many things interrupted my head but it couldn’t stop me kissing the angle in front of me. Yeah, I admitted it, I fell for her seriously. Finally, I managed to kiss her lip. So soft and omg….she was so defenseless. I felt sinful kissing her in this condition, but I couldn’t help myself. I really wanted to kiss her so bad. I am sorry Atsuko. That might be my last kiss for you before you left me and AKB48. So sorry…
Today was our first national tour in Fukuoka. The concert ran smoothly and no significant problem appeared. The fans were so enthusiast and we were happy we did it great. We all went to look for something to eat. The foods were so tasty and Atsuko couldn’t stop eating. She looked so cute when eating and I loved that.
Time ran so fast and I would turn into 21 years in some hours. It was so weird, Atsuko didn’t speak to me like she did. She just said something she needed and no random talks like usual. What happened? Did I do something to her? Or…she knew that I kissed her that day and try avoiding me? Omg… I am dead. Atsuko shouldn’t know that! Now I am dead for sure! I need to make sure, but how? Should I ask her directly? Geezz she might be slapping me hard on cheek. I knew I shouldn’t kiss her at that time. Now I regretted it.
At first I thought it was a prank, but if it was, everybody should avoid me as well. The fact was nobody avoided me. Mariko-sama, Yuko, Miichan, Nyan Nyan were fine. We talked like usually we did. It was only Atsuko. It was obvious she was mad at me because of that kiss. Ugh… What should I do now? I didn’t even know how to apologize. Eventhough I really wanted to make memorable moments of ours but guess I failed. I am done for.
Mariko-sama asked me to hold a birthday party for me at her house this midnight. Everybody will attend. I agreed. I wondered if Atsuko would come. I mean, it’s my birthday… I really hoped she would be there as well.
“Happy birthday, Takamina!!!” Everybody shouted at me. I blew up the candles.
“Our midget already 21 years now!!”
Everybody shouted so crazy. Some of them gave me presents, I was happy and took it.
“Why Acchan didn’t come? It’s Takamina’s birthday after all…” Miichan said.
“Something happened?” Yuko asked me. I shook my head.
“Acchan had something to do, it was urgent. She told me this evening.” Mariko-sama added.
“How could she take her jobs as priority?” Miichan tried to call Atsuko but then I stopped her.
“It’s okay, Miichan. Maybe its really urgent. I am fine.” Miichan then put her phone back in her pocket.
Some mins ago I was already 21 years but Atsuko wasn’t here to celebrate it. I wonder if she really had urgent thing to do or she just avoided me. Too many things inside my head and I thought it would gonna blow up in a moment.
“Let’s enjoy the party guys!” Mariko-sama then gave me the knife to slice the cake.
With a force smile, I tried to act that I am okay, in fact I really broke inside.

Atsuko didn’t even call me n say happy birthday to me. I kept looking at my phone in my living room. I went back to my apartment since 30 mins ago and now I still stayed up. I couldn’t sleep at all before Atsuko call me, as if she would do it. She would never do it. She was mad at me though.
“Atsuko….what are you doing? What’s wrong with you? I don’t have any idea.” I kept talking to my phone though it won’t give me any answers I needed. Something warm rolled down my cheek, it was my tears. I was crying and holding my phone so tight. Hoping she would call me and say nothing happened.
My head was so heavy….I felt something touched my cheeks and lazily I opened both of my eyes. Yes, I felt asleep before. When my soul back to me I could see clearly. I was surprised when I saw the person I really wanted to meet was already in front of me, smiling to me. Spontaneously I stood up and half shouted her name.
“Yeey….” She formed ‘V’ with her fingers and showed her cute smile.
“Why are you here?? You can….”
“I have key…” she showed me my apartment’s key. Since when I gave it to her?!
I put my hand on top of my head, feeling so complicated. What does it mean??
“Did I surprise you?” she asked me.
“Happy birthday!” she gave a small box. I looked at that closely and tilted a bit.
“What is it?”
“A present…” she winked. I took it. I opened it slowly and I found a ring inside. I was surprised than ever! A ring?? I examined that ring so carefully.
“You don’t like it?”
“Eh?? I do like it!” Quickly I put it on my finger. Then I thought again, why should a ring? Feeling so weird. I read and watched on TV, whenever a guy wanted to propose his girlfriend, mostly he would give his girlfriend a ring. EHH?? Now my face reaction should be more than a surprise. Atsuko showed me her smile again and walked closer to me.
“I am sorry I missed your important moment. I wasn’t there when you turned into 21. I really wanted to go, but I had to hold it. I just wanted to be with you alone in your birthday, Minami.”
“Mariko told me you have urgent things to do?”
“That was just my excuse to not participate in the party. Beside I needed to find something which can make you always remember me when I wasn’t in AKB48 anymore.”
“Atsuko….” I lost some words to say.
“I found that ring and then I asked someone to write “AtsuMina” on it.”
After she said that, I examined my ring again and yeah….there was AtsuMina written on it. How sweet, Atsuko. She held my hand and looked closely onto my eyes.
“Hey…. Do you know that It’s hard for me to leave you in AKB48? I wanted to stay as well, but I had to graduate. Like I said, what happened to me when you weren’t around? I might lost on my way without you. You are like a little shine in my dark way, lead me to the right place and won’t let me out of the way. You kept giving me that light no matter what. You are my light, Minami…” she attached her forehead onto mine and she closed her eyes. DEG DEG DEG DEG. My heart beat so hard. I couldn’t believe she said that to me. Now I want to reveal everything to her. I hope she wouldn’t hate me for that. I think this is the right time for it.
“Hm?” Atsuko suddenly opened her eyes and now we are looking at each other in very close distance. My mouth is like being locked. No words were coming out. Damn it! I didn’t ever imagine our face would be this close. “What did you want to say, Minami?”
Her voice was replying in my ears. So close and her beautiful voice, omg. I am dying here.
“Ehm…I….euh….hmm….” I couldn’t even look away. Her pretty face was too precious to be denied!
Suddenly Atsuko bit her lower lips and that made my heart felt like jumping out from its place! So cute! Then Atsuko slowly moved closer to me… Oh god, don’t tell me she is going to….
Atsuko touched her lips with mine. I couldn’t say it was a kiss, she only touched it with her lips though.
My head was blowing like bomb. All my body was freezing and I couldn’t move. What is happening? My head was dizzy..
Now we back looked at each other. I couldn’t even say a word. Fail.
“That was…..another present from me.” She said. I blushed a lot.
“I felt I wanted to. Dame ka?”
“Ehh?? It’s not like that. Well…. I am surprised…”
“You are? You kissed me first….”
“When I slept in the practicing room…” she smirked. She pretended to sleep! Nice Atsuko. You got me now. I facepalmed myself.
“Cute~ Don’t worry, Minami. I enjoyed it though. I really wanted to get kissed by you….”
“Yeah… But I thought you wouldn’t do that since you were my best friend. I wanted to ask you to do that though, but I was afraid you would refuse. I hate refusal.”
“Baka….how could I refuse when you asked me to kiss you?” I poked her cheek.
“You wanted to do it as well?”
“Of course…” I smiled. How happy I was when she said that. I felt little bit relieved she also wanted the same.
Then we were in silent.
“Don’t you notice it I was being to active to you lately?”Atsuko started the conversation.
“Ah, I was wondering that also.”
“I will tell you… Knowing that I would be no longer in AKB anymore and leaving you alone, I felt little bit uncomfortable. You didn’t even know my true feeling toward you and I needed you to know. I was afraid other members would steal you from me and I tied you  until you couldn’t go away. And I really hoped that wouldn’t be late.”
“It’s not late, Atsuko. We have same feeling to each other and I am happy to hear that from you. I guess you should be more honest to yourself. It’s good for you..”
Atsuko smiled again… Now she cherished my cheeks still showing that cute smile of hers. I couldn’t help but blush even more.
“Hm… that one I didn’t count as a kiss….” She smirked. Really made me doki-doki. I only could feel that only toward her. To whom I love, Atsuko Maeda.
“I love you Minami….” Those words replied inside my head. So happy hearing that from her. I could hear her voice clearly. She then pulled myself closer and she placed her lips on my lips. Kissed me with passion and of course it wasn’t a touching only like before. It was kissing. Real one. It was even hotter than our puccho’s CM when I didn’t get Atsuko as my partner. But it didn’t a matter anymore. She is in front of me now and I could feel the real kiss with her.
She wrapped her hands around my neck while me placed my hands around her waist. It counted as couple kiss, right? Yes, it did. I could feel Atsuko’s affection by how she kissed me. So daring, gentle, and soft. And yeah, I didn’t know her lips taste this good, made me addicted already. Slowly she slipped in her tongue inside and started its journey. The kiss felt so much better than the one I did while she was sleeping. It felt so alive and I could feel its sensation. Sucking, licking, and biting each other, it felt so much better. This was the best bday present for me.
Some minutes had passed and then Atsuko pulled herself, and smiled at me.
“Now I am sure I can leave you in AKB. We already tied to each other and nothing much to worry.”she said.
“But I would miss you…”
Then Atsuko kissed my lips once again… “We still can meet…”
“It must be hard since our schedule would be different.”
“Trust me, nothing to worry. One thing to remember, do not ever try to cheat on me. I won’t forgive you…”
“Hee? Shouldn’t it be you? You are famous and there must be so many guys are after you. I should be the one who must be worried.”
“I can handle them and I am such a loyal girlfriend, Minami.”smirked again. “Btw….what’s your answer?”
When she was asking me about the answer, she really looked cute. No way Atsuko. No way I could cheat on you. Like I said, you are too precious. You are my everything. Nobody could replace you, nobody.
I smiled to her, “You don’t need to ask, you already know the answer. I love you too, Atsuko.”
She looked so happy and kissed my forehead. “Promised me we would still together until world end. No matter what…”
“I promised Atsuko…”
I never break my promise to you Atsuko. If you said that, I would make that happened. If you didn’t want that to be happened, I would make that not happened.  Your smile was everything to me. Even you are not in AKB anymore, you are still the ace to me, to fans. Let’s do our best although we were in different place and time, we both did have our own goals. Its not the end at all, it’s our starting point!

[AtsuMina] Good Bye Days

holla again! I wrote it after listening to YUI n Yama-P songs, lol

here is my dummy story enjoy :3


Alone at field next to the river, I stood next to a big tree. Once I looked up and saw this blossoms tree,

“It’s live.” I said to myself as I sincerely smiled formed on my face.

Gentle breeze was waving my long black hair and I had to keep my hair. I looked up to the sky and saw many stars were there. The moon looked so beautiful and that was why I loved the scenery at night.

Wishing she would come here as well since this was our favorite place long time ago. I just could hope as I knew she would never come.

I walked near river and sat on the ground. Seeing straightly to the large river, it was so calm at night. This place was calm at night, really different when it was day. Busy, crowded, many people wandered around, no place for a person like me who wanted to enjoy the view only.

“I feel like things are changing now. So long yesterday and before. I have a clumsy tenderness by my side…” I sang to myself and I really loved this song. She liked this song too and we always sing it at karaoke.

“……and in th-that mo…ment it…plays slowly….I’am, I’m….lo….ving you, right?…”

I felt my mouth couldn’t continue singing, it was trembling. Suddenly my body was shaking so hard, I locked my mouth up as I wanted to hold my tears from falling. “….some…times….I…I get confused…” tears started streaming down my cheeks. It couldn’t help as I cried.

At that time, I promised myself I didn’t want to sing this song again. The song which reminded me of her, it just made me hurt and it was really painful. But I didn’t know I wanted to sing this song tonight, the timing was right. I was alone, the cold air tonight, situation, and everything in this place, moreover I was at our special place. The song which was full by our memories.

I pulled my feet closer and wrapped both of my hands there. I buried my head in it and I was crying. I let all tears out and I cried loudly as nobody was here tonight. Missing someone who was so important, it must be so painful. It felt so tight inside and I couldn’t breathe normally. Wishing she would come here at this time, at this second, but I knew it was just a wish. She would never come to me.

I felt a warm hand gently stroked my hair and slowly I raised my head. Surprisingly that person was here. The person whom I wished to come was here right now. But…..but how? Is it a dream? Am I dreaming right now?

“Nee…..Why are you crying?” she sat beside me and wiped my tears. She parted my bang so that she could see my whole face.

“Atsu….” I frowned. Until now I couldn’t believe that she was here.

She smiled to me.

“You…..here? but….how? Am I dreaming?”

“You are not dreaming, Minami. You wished me here, didn’t you?” she wrapped her hand around my neck as she showed me her perfect smile. The smile which I couldn’t forget in entire my life.

After my soul back to my body, I directly hugged the person beside me so tight.

“Atsuko, gomen! Gomen!!!” I kept hugging her tightly and saying sorry like crazy to her. I knew, it was not enough only by apologizing. I wanted to do anything so that she would forgive me after what I’ve done before.

“Hey…hey…. You don’t have to say sorry. Look at me…” Atsuko pulled away and asked me to look onto her eyes. “I am not mad.” She smiled. And that smile made me felt more guilty. But Acchan said so, I thought I shouldn’t think about it too much anymore.

I looked at her from top until her toe, Atsuko is really in front of me now. I hugged her before right? So I wasn’t hallucinating. She’s here.

I noticed that she wore small headset. She realized that I looked at her headsets and smiled to me.

“Wanna listen too?”

“What song?”

“Of course, our favorite song.” She took one off and gave it to me. I took it and attached it on my ear.

Dakara ima ai ni yuko. Sou kimetanda… Poketto no kono kyoku wo kimi ni kikasetai..

I let the song repeated on my ear as I locked my eyes on Atsuko. I really missed her so much so that I didn’t want to look away from her. The person I really wanted to meet was here, in front of me. And we were playing our favorite song at our favorite place, just the two of us, nobody bothered us. The meaning of the song touched my feeling. I started to cry again as I kept looking at her. She surprised seeing me crying and quickly wiped my tears.

“Aaa Minami….You are such a cry baby…” she chuckled.

Her chuckling heard so real.

Then she looked at the sky. But I didn’t want to waste my time and bother look up, I’d rather to see Atsuko until morning came. She was more beautiful than starts and moon tonight. Then our eyes met, she frowned.

“Hey….why are you looking at me like that? Something on my face?” Atsuko checked her face.

“Nothing there, Atsuko..”

“Hemm….You are weird.”

“I don’t understand as well, but tonight I really want to see you, just you. I am afraid that I might lose you for the second time.”

Atsuko just looked at me, confused. She tried to guess what happen to me, but she just ended up looking at me strangely.

“Atsuko why I feel so sad?” I started by asking a really weird question. She was just silent. “I wished you so bad to be here, and you were here. But….why I feel my heart is crying? Why I feel such a pain on my chest? Though you are here right now.”

“Minami….” Atsuko held my hand tightly and she tried to bring me back to reality, she might be thinking that I am crazy.

Then I cried again, “Atsuko…..Don’t leave me.”

Atsuko looked so sad, it was shown on her face. She felt guilty making me crying and in much pain like this. She wished she could go back to that time, so that this thing may not happen.

“I won’t.” She stroked my hair.

“Promise me?” I asked her. She nodded.

“I won’t leave you. I am always with you and I promise.”

“I miss you, Atsuko….”

“I do too…” Atsuko smiled.

By still having tears streamed my cheeks, I put my hands on her shoulder. I took a deep looking at her face, like scanning it and recorded it on my mind. I really didn’t want to lose her for the second times. I wouldn’t let her go…

Without noticing it, I moved closer and pressed my lips against hers. Her soft lips felt real, I really kissed her. She replied my kiss and started moving her lips as well. It was her usual kiss which I missed so much. I could hear she called my name and continued kissing me. It felt so comfortable.

Atsuko pulled herself away and looked at me.

“That tree witnessed us….” Atsuko pointed to the blossom tree over there. “…and I won’t go anywhere…” she gently wiped my tears and leaned a kiss on my forehead.

“I was hurt whenever you cried for me. Please…..don’t cry anymore. For me, Minami…Please…”


“Here….” Atsuko placed her right hand on my chest. “I am right here with you, Minami. I am a  part of your heart. I won’t go anywhere, so please….Please don’t cry anymore. I can’t see you cry…”

I just looked at Atsuko. She kept begging me to not cry again. Slowly Atsuko shadow got faded away, but she still begged me. I shook my head, maybe I was too dizzy so that Atsuko got blurred. When I opened my eyes, Atsuko liked being further and it was blurry, I couldn’t see her clearly.

She kept looking at me. We looked each other so long, “Minami….I really love you.”

“Atsuko?” I tried to call her, but she still there kept saying something.

“Atsuko! Atsuko!” I called her when her shadow would like disappearing soon. Right after that a light was going so fast toward me and hit me.

I blinked for some times and I opened my eyes. I felt my eyes so hurt and my head was too dizzy. I woke up and sat on where I lied. I touched my eyes, it was wet. I noticed that I was not at field and I looked around. I was in living room.

I tried to remember everything, I met Atsuko before right? I stood up from my couch and walked nowhere. I held my head and kept thinking.

There I saw photos on the table. I took one photo frame and it was me and Atsuko. It was about a year ago when I celebrated her birthday. She looked annoyed because I made a prank for her. But after all, Atsuko was so happy. I giggled when I saw that photo. Then I put it back and took another one. It was Atsuko single photo. She smiled on the picture. I touched it right on the face… and right after my hand was trembling. I covered my mouth with my hand. Then I used both my hands to hold the photo and forced myself to smile. My mouth was too trembling, hard for me to smile. I put the photo back to its place and then I felt something warm rolled on my cheeks. Though I bit my lips to avoid me to cry, but I couldn’t.

Yeah…I was just back to reality. I knew I met Atsuko in dream, I knew it was not real, though her smile, her touch, her kiss felt so real to me.

“Atsu….ko…” I kept looking at the photo which I just put back.

I still couldn’t accept her to leave me so early. I shouldn’t come late at that time, Atsuko wouldn’t die.

“I didn’t say sorry properly to you yet. You…..had left me before I could say it in front of you.” I said in sobbing.

“Atsuko…..I’m sorry. I’m sorry Atsuko….” I cried loudly as I covered my face with both of my hands.

Atsuko passed away two weeks ago because she got an accident. Someone tried to snatch her but Atsuko fought him, then she got killed. A day before, we had a fight because of my selfishness, and it was always Atsuko who apologized first. She asked me to meet each other the day after because she had something to tell. But I came late and she got an accident.

I regretted everything. I said horrible things to her when I got angry, I wouldn’t admit if I was wrong because Atsuko was too patient, so that I took advantage from it. She was too patient to me. I was lucky having her by my side.

“I really love you….” I wiped the tears and tried to be strong. I remembered what Atsuko said in my dream. I shouldn’t cry. Atsuko would be hurt when she saw me crying.

“Atsuko….I promised no more tears. It is all I could do for you.” I smiled from heart. I knew Atsuko must be watching from up there. I will keep smiling everyday, for you whom I love so much. Maeda Atsuko.